A Christmas Miracle

OK so technically it's not really a Christmas miracle but a miracle for me none-the-less. If you read my blog you may remember a post back in March where I spilled all my feelings and emotions and yearnings about having another baby.
The road has been long and hard and I had finally accepted that 3 kids was enough and that I was completely satisfied with that. Max will be starting kindergarten in the fall and miss Alexa will be driving shortly after...starting over would be hard...but starting over is exactly what we are doing...
because I AM PREGNANT!!! After the kids opened up all the presents Rich brought out a Build-a Bear box and set it on the ground. Alex asked who it was for and I told him to go ahead and open it. It took him a minute and Alexa caught on before he did. Alex was very excited and Alexa wasn't as mad as I thought she would be (she has been telling me no more babies for a long time). Rich had to explain it to Max (who by the way maybe already knew because he has been talking alot about a baby brother out of the blue).

Here is the story, I have been on and off birth control (you ask "why would you be on birth control if you have been wanting to get pregnant??" I have PCOS and don't ovulate regularly on my own so the idea is that the birth control helps you cycle normally then you go off it the next month...I won't go into that, too confusing and not really relevant to this story) but ran out and never got anymore. My periods are always late so I never really think anything of it (actually I used to always get my hopes up that I was really pregnant but I never was...very hard roller coaster to be on). So it's the first part of December and I realize that it has been almost a month and a half with no period yet. I was feeling different and had a few other things going on that made me a little suspicious. I bought a pregnancy test and did it one morning and there were definitely 2 lines but one was so faint that I didn't trust it. As we were laying in bed going to sleep I said to Rich "I think I am having a baby." He was confused as to why I said "think" so I told him about the test and he told me to go get another one. The next day I did another one with pretty much the same result but it was enough to convince Rich. I knew deep down that it was true but it was hard to admit since I had already decided 3 was great!!
I had to be absolutely sure so I called up Dr. Andrew and asked if he would take a quick peek and confirm it for me (he did an ultrasound and sure enough there it was). Seeing is believing!!! As of today (I am typing this post on 1-5-11) I will be 12 weeks tomorrow and the due date it July 21st 2011!!!